Day 14: To Whom It May Concern – LETTER TO AN EX


 

I am sorry we broke up. Really, I am.

Because you were wonderful, maybe even the best I have ever had. Why wouldn’t you be? That’s what drew me to you. But while you were wonderful in your own unique ways, I guess I just wasn’t enough or should I say; the distance was too much. I know 6 months is a very long time without seeing the person you loved. I could endure that but what I didn’t realize was that you couldn’t. You were fragile and I was trying too hard to build you up.

Looking back, I think the fragility was what endeared me to you. Our friends called us the perfect couple; they can’t even believe that we are no longer together. I can, not because I was a cynic and thought you would leave me but because like everything else in life; people always leave, it doesn’t matter whether they want to or not. In the end, they leave.

Up till this day, I still don’t get the real reason why you left; I don’t believe the story about the text. Or maybe I know the real reason and I just don’t want to say it out loud because I like the image of you that I have in my mind and that is the only good thing I have.

I still love you, I can never stop loving you (believe me, I have tried). And even if I find someone else, what I will feel for them will never be as much as what I will always feel for you. It doesn’t matter whether that someone has better qualities than you, there was a way in which you complimented me and made us fit that I don’t think anybody else can ever match. You gave me the best one year of my life and for that I am forever grateful.

I AM TRYING TO FORGET YOU BUT I AM ALSO WAITING FOR YOU TO COME BACK.

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4 thoughts on “Day 14: To Whom It May Concern – LETTER TO AN EX

  1. While I like the mustiness of this post, I totally agree with Pearl.
    And I hope for your sake and that of your “present”, that she didn’t read this post.

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    • As of right now, there is no “present”. And i can confidently say I no longer feel that way towards the ex. Writing how i felt back then helped and force me to face the feelings and figure my emotions out. And while it wasn’t fun doing that, I’ve moved on.

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  2. Wahala dot com. I pity the women in your future sha. I’d die if my boyfriend was holding a torch for anyone half this much.

    PS; haven’t seen my man since January. No, it isn’t easy. But it’s him or nothing. I will wait. Another year. And after that comes, another. Only he will do, it’s just that simple.

    I feel this.

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    • Well, there is a woman in my present and she doesn’t know neither will i ever tell her that i still have strong feelings towards my ex.
      It’s easier for me because I’m able to compartmentalize my thoughts and emotions so that one does not dictate how i act on another. I’m more logical than emotional so i’m able to miss my ex while still going about my life like it’s all good

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